Feelings

January 20

i feel my grief in every bone
joy as a radiance around me
anger brings tension
and frustration more anger
yet i live and am them all

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4 Comments for “Feelings”:

  1. January 20th, 2010 Holli says:

    I love this…….

  2. January 20th, 2010 StephanieD says:

    That first line is very strong.

  3. January 21st, 2010 Kalanna says:

    funny you should say that steph – and thank you holli! – but it was that first line that gripped me enough to sit me down in front of the computer. i tried to finish the thought, give it companions worthy and equally intense, but it the end it was mostly still all about the first line…

    and yet even in its inadequacy, the whole thing served its purpose to calm my heart. i have this odd reaction when confrontation arrives. if i feel in the least bit wronged, the grief surrounding my mom’s death and the blaming and betrayal that followed comes right to the forefront of my psyche. i enter unbidden into instant mourning. and something had happened at work, something i worked hard to address and not hide, yet i could not get a reign on my feelings and came home in the proverbial fetal position with that line demanding attention inside my head.

  4. January 28th, 2010 Jo says:

    Very, wow. (I know, eloquent, ain’t I?! lol) Really though, simple & powerful.

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